by Ana
June 27, 2017
Do you ever feel like everybody else has it made? Like yu are outside some bubble, and you can't figure out how to get in?
I will tell you a short story. I was having my own issues, and was outside our regular hangout, taking a breather. I was overwhelmed, and even the alcohol wasn't helping calm me down. Life was going by too fast.
Anyway, a friend came outside and was pacing a bit. She said, "I don't know what is wrong with me, I can't find a partner who loves me. Look at Sally, she has it made. She has a new husband, a new car, a home, a good job; everything she could want and more. How come I am still alone?"
I told her to stop putting herself down. her way of thinking she isn't good enough radiates, and people feel that. She should love herself, before expecting others to love her. That was harsh; but it was the truth. She is a great person, very loving and open. She is caring and kind to her friends, and she does have many friends. She had no idea that Sally had her own issues. I knew about it because I was her friend. Sally was having severe relationship issues with her husband, and wanted out of the marriage. The car was financed under his name, and the house was his and his alone. She had a good job, but not many true friends, and she had just lost a parent. Later on, I come to find out she had a bad spending habit, cleaned out her husband as she left him. He lost his house, ended in debt and had his credit ruined. My point was, everyone has their own issues, and the grass might be only greener, because it is covered with shit.
Now back to the bubble. I always wanted children, and my ex husband was in no shape for them. My current husband and I tried for years, and I finally found out I will not be able to have any. I felt broken, and lost. What now? I wanted to be in that bubble! But, then I realized, that bubble was not for me. I got tired of admiring other bubbles, and decided to make my own; I am so much happier this way. I have my relationships, which are totally imperfect but beautiful. I have all I need, and I am blessed.
It is not easy to look inside. It is like living in your house. You see what is in it; but if you walk outside and look through the window as a stranger, you find out more things about yourself and your life. And when you talk it out with someone, it is like looking in the mirror. It helps you gather your ideas and organize them. So then your dreams become plans. You can organize all the puzzle pieces so they work for you. You are unique and wonderful; what works for others, may not work for you.
Start by getting to know yourself and you will fall in love. Once you do that, things will work out smoother, and others will see the light in you shining through.
Ana
